I seriously don’t wanna write today but I haven’t written anything yesterday so I feel kind of useless.
Which is crazy because I went to work yesterday and even posted two vlogs in less than two days – so, I’ve been productive. But my main goal – what has been giving me some kind of happiness everyday is writing. Man, I love writing, it’s actually so addictive when you start doing it – especially when you let all the internet know all your thoughts.
I might still not get the complete views that I want but it’s okay, it’s only been one month since I’ve been back into working I guess ‘part time’ on the blog. I can’t say this is full time completely yet until I successfully wake up at 6:30 AM and start writing at 7:30 AM. I still wake up early and I usually don’t waste my day but seriously by the end of the summer I want to be able to get up before 7 AM. It’s a goal of mine and I really gotta focus and work on it.
Anyways, this has nothing to do with what I wanted to write today – I actually had no idea what I wanted to write but I knew I wanted to write – and later I will be doing a vlog.
It’s cool though, I’m still creating everyday and putting myself out there. It’s just really hard some days but I know that as I keep progressing I will get somewhere.
But today was tough… I woke up early and did my ConBravo vlog but after that my cramps *lol yeah, remember – I’m a girl?* have been killing me. Imagine having 4000 knives going through your stomach and just making endless circles? That’s how I’ve been feeling today. Ok honestly I didn’t thought I would actually write about my period on my blog but here we are oops.
Cramps are real, guys – and crying because of your period is even more real. I cried in the grocery store (literally broke down in front of the ice cream section), I cried because the dirt on a fork wouldn’t come out and I also cried for no absolute reason when my aunt told me she was going to the movies.
All of this was followed by some rude attitude I was giving my aunt – but it’s cool because literally 2 seconds after I hugged her and told her I loved her. LOL WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME
I went through at least 4-5 different emotions today and most of them there was no reason for them to be.
Also I decided to listen to some old school Taylor Swift music thinking it would help me out but it did not – in fact, I cried even more. The only thing that slightly helped me was listening to Spotify’s “This is: Ariana Grande” playlist which has been my saviour tbh.
This blog post literally doesn’t make sense, but it definitely felt good to write about some part of my day.
I hope everyone is having a great day and a great night – I know I’m definitely about to have a great one cause I’m finally gonna go see Mamma Mia 2 – so you know I’m gonna cry even more.