I’ve always been very vocal about how cosplaying helps me deal with my anxiety and mental health in general – and putting on Harley Quinn’s costume from the 2016 Suicide Squad movie was no different. In fact, dressing up as this version of Harley is the one that helped me feeling the most free in a time that I felt like I was drowning.
I first put on this cosplay back in November of 2016 when I was going through one of the hardest time of my life. I was juggling with school, work, working with the newspaper, family issues, rejection from a position I was dreaming of, friends that turned out to be fake and I was going through a break up.
Let me tell you that none of this was easy. Every day I would wake up and just feel out of place. When I would look in the mirror I would just feel uncomfortable thinking of the situations I would be going through and would always end up in tears/panic mode.
It was hard for me to even think of putting a smile on my face – the only way I could was to think of the previous good times I went through and the most recent one in that time of my life was when I cosplayed Daenerys Targaryen at Fan Expo in 2016. Becoming someone else for a day was soooo much fun! So obviously, I was so excited for Halloween and even though I knew everyone was gonna dress up as her, I wanted to cosplay Harley Quinn so bad.
Scratch that – I needed to cosplay her. The idea of being someone who somehow found themselves through heartbreaks whether it was love or friendship and eventually made a group of friends (I mean they are killers but you know what I mean) that she could be herself with? It sounded so refreshing.
I feel like at that time in my life, I didn’t know who I was anymore – I lost my essence. By dressing up as characters that inspired my personality to shine was a way for me to rebuild who I was, believed that I am and wanted to be.
When I finally got the costume I actually cried a little bit – especially when I first put it on. I felt so happy, free, dangerous and sexy. I mean, I even got the bat!
I don’t think I cosplayed her enough times for what the costume is worth but I think that means that I will be putting on the costume a few more times this year for sure.
I love my Harley Quinn and I’m obsessed with the character – she’s crazy, independent but most importantly she’s herself.
What’s your favourite cosplay to wear that you feel most happy in?