First off I’d like to say sorry for the lack of content that I’ve been putting on the website. Everything’s been going great overall but I feel like I was a bit disconnected with the blog. As much as everything has been making more sense and I feel closer to my goals everyday whether it’s based on decisions that I make or that the universe makes for me, I still can’t help but feel super stressed and anxious.
I don’t wanna spoil too much of what’s going on in my life yet because I don’t want to ‘jinx’ it as we say it but I do wanna say that I’m feeling utterly anxious and nervous right now. Surprisingly though, it’s a different kind of anxiety that I haven’t felt ever. It’s this kind of anxiety that you feel when you’re so close to what you want but still so unsure if you’re actually gonna get it. Makes sense?
Honestly, I’m not even sure if it does. I’m feeling content about writing this post though because it’s a way of facing the fears that I’m holding inside me.
Actually, for about more than a week I was constantly surrounded by people and now it’s the first time that I’m alone and have to face the whirlwind of emotions that I went through in the last couple of weeks.
It is a happy new year but it’s also a transitional new year. I currently feel also like the new year is like a horse that I am on right now but the speed that the horse is going to is so fast that I’m scared I will lose it. So what am I doing? Well, I have to be strong and courageous and keep my hands on the horse.
2019 is going fast already, and I wanna make sure I can handle every moment that comes.
I will be writing more in the next day but on a personal note, I’m excited to share some hopefully good news with you all very soon.